I didn't realized how much ur friendship actually meant to me... Until now when we have decided to make a clean break.. Such an arrangement doesn't makes it any happier then u do.. And I have no idea how much I have treasured the friendship till now..
A friend ask me before.. Whether would I cry I front of others or show my true feelings? Well, I told her I won't.. Not because i'm afraid that others would see my fragile side.. But it's just that if I were to show my feelings, I won't stop tearing... That's the main reason why no one will ever see my true feelings... Not even when I'm sad or hurt... I'll just show a poker face and act as if nothing has happen... So that no one will suspect a thing....
I know you wouldn't believe me or what.. But it actually took me an entire days time to pluck up my courage to send you that message.. And believe me i was tearing as i typed it.. And cried even more when i had to reply u...
U didn't know how much u have been hurting me... By the words that u've typed... Or the stuff u said to other people.. Acting ignorance doesn't mean that i'm a fool... From the comments I saw its apparent that u have done such things... N u still can say that u were shock I lied to you.. Oh well... If that's what u think so be it... Maybe I did.. Maybe I didn't.. But the thing u cn never change is my character... If u can't take the truth and always like being buttered then there's nothing I can say..
To begin with.. We were not that close I guess? Since we met during an attachment.. Apparently that's not enough to forge a friendship that's deep enough ... As compared to those u already have ...
It really pains me to know how much u actually meant as a friend to me.. I have never once had such a sad feeling before... It's like throughout one's entire life.. You'll meet people thats meant to stay.. Some to hurt u.. Some to make u happy.. Sad.. And some that's not meant to stay at all.. But the feelings different.. It's like when u leave secondary school and lost a contact to a good friend or because of your your busy life.. That.. Slowly slowly apparently u two will grow apart.. But for such a thing.. I'll just think that perhaps it was just meant to be..
But when I have decided to make a clean break with you.. It felt different.. I know that u might just be a passerby in my life... But it hurts so bad... And I just cried for no reason and couldn't stop that I think I actually cried to sleep...
Unlike u... I dnt have people to comfort me when that happens... Because no one really sees my feelings I guess? So I''m like always the happy go lucky fellow.. Who just give and give... And get hurt time after time...
Well... The only things that knows my feelings will be my soft toys around my bed that see me cry and knows my true feeling... 😢😭
Wahahahha..... just return home from KL this late afternoon...
Surprisingly didnt but much this trip.. But i went crazy over slippers...
haha... everytime go to a country, i'll get obsessed with an item.. last round to taiwan was purse..
i bought like 10 purse... haha... this time.. not a lot.. about 6 pairs of slippers... haha cuz didnt change much RM... didnt have chance to save much money.. cuz.. JJ album's out!!!! YEAH!!!!
haha... JJ PARTY 4!!! Dame excited.. Looks like its in March.. hopefully it'll clash with his birthday again just like the previous one.. and... concert... haha... Have yet to buy it yet.. cuz the album suppose to be out world wide.. but i cant find it in Malaysia.. was still hoping to get a malaysian version... Oh well..
But i'm getting it tomorrow!! haha... and my Mark Read's album and A1's greatest hits album have arrive!!! after so long... haha.. going collect it too..
Tomorrow's going to be a real real busy day... cuz going to chalet too...
after all the buying and collecting of albums... have to go shopping for the bbq... haha....
alright.... time for bed!!! Night!!! =)
First time.... i felt so hopeless in my studies! Its like nothing goes in!
:( There goes my gpa for sure... Who came up with Management!!! Arg.....
Whats done cannot be undone already... hmm.. looks like i have to work triple harder now!
Next up AFA, should be better.... since its all last sem topics,. and then its stats then presentation for oral comm and then internetweb Ica.. and finally... holidays... starting from 19 Dec to... 3 Jan only.. 4 Jan is back on track... and everything will start all over again... then its my birthday then CNY... then FINAL exams... and then holiday... and In April yr 2 already!! 0.0...
Seems like this year just flies.... Whammp... and tomorrow is the 1st of Dec already...
I'm now waiting.... for JJ albums, A1 and !!! Finally... especially A1... after 7 yrs.. they're coming back!! Westlife singles out! and album on the way.. JJ's should be in dec too... And he's returning back in a few days time for a pub concert!!! But..... i cant go... not of age yet... i'm short of 1 month and 23 days to 18 years old.. ;( Oh well.......
Back to the books~~~
After one yr.. finally bck on track of blogging... Yeah...!! haha... lol..
Yup... must thank chin chin.... She helped me get it bck on track!! haha...
Recently.... been working on sch projects and mostly at the LSC there.. Whereby,
we would go down play with the kids, find activites for them... etc...
Yup, and this wed sld be going down again,, maybe dong x'mas deco!! 3D x'mas tree and Snowman!!! Haha...
This few days... i sure dont have the mood to study for POM..... No idea why.... Its hardly the case!! Faint***
Oh well.... Back on track now... to the books......
The exams are finally over!!!
Life have been great since ever.
, starting with chalet, escape, JJ at K union, BBQ at east coast, JJ at causeway point,
WoooHooo....
hahah... but i'm still very excited in receiving my e-mail from OBM.. which
will include the photo that i've taken with JJ at suntec!! :)
haha...
yeah, and if you wanna buy x'mas cake, you can get the cake which was design ny JJ at all breadtalk outlets, starting somewhere in dec, cake name called, '' Jolly JJ''.
Grad high-tea
JJ @ causeway pt
JJ @ causeway pt
JJ @ causeway pt - designing X'mas cake.
JJ party 3 
JJ party 3
JJ party 3
JJ party 3
JJ party 3
It's been so long since i blog again.. haha yeah... Been extremely busy recently...
With all the mock exams, tests, prelims... and chinese 'o' level's just around the corner!!!
Arh... pathetic... and following week.. chinese papers... 6 days in a row!!!....
Really, this load is killing me.... haha...
Anyway, i guess that you might have heard.. JJ's been a boss already!! haha...
JFJ Production... OOWW.... hahaz...
Recently, JJ's new show's out in store. It's called "Yuan Lai Wo Bu Shuai" , english,
"I'm not handsome"... haha... it's more of a comedy and a bit of a romance show... haha
Catch it if you can!! I think soon it'll be on screen.. i guess....
Besides, JJ's been really busy recently.. with all the songs he's got to sing and his company.. WOW... and i guess you might also have heard, that he's running for the Olympics thingy... hahaz
Dame cool....
Oh and it's also ShiJia's birthday today...
Happy Birthday my dearest friend :)
Magic
=SeLeNe ChAn=
Currently Studying At NYP
Favorites:
Dogs...dalmations
Teddies
Guitars!!!
Basically Disney!!!
Winnie the Pooh
Pluto
Big Fans OF:
JJ Lin
A1
Westlife